Tuesday, April 21, 2009

On est toutes la Malinche

Stop pretending, it fucking took you one comment.
Don't lie, deep inside you know it was a matter of stupid pride
like always, you say you don't care but sure you do
I recognize that predictable face,
that arrogant smile, there is no humility
no... it is you, it is me and my never-obsolete self-preservation laws

You are starting to feel something else don't you?
You felt it that night
No breakfast? No movie? No coffee?
Je te téléphone quand je finis
11 heures le soir... rien
you know you are walking around because you are mad.

That is why you are running
you are feeling, you can't concentrate, you need that edge
Same feeling every time, toujours la même histoire
Paris... tu es vraiment hypocrite!
Buenos Aires... siempre lo más fácil
Mexico... no, simplemente no.

Otra vez ese vacio en el estómago
El sol ya entra por la ventana del sótano,
tú sigues aquí Mariele, sentada en la misma mesa de la biblioteca
sin leer, sin concentrarte, sin hablar,
con solo ganas de tomar todos los libros...
¡todos!, tirarlos al piso correr entre ellos y
de pronto del piso tomar uno que diga
"Toma de Decisiones 101."
Una hora entera ha pasado sin que si quiera saques tu libro
piensas en él... como cada vez que escribes...
sientes un escalofrio... ¡Vete Mariele, empaca y como siempre vete!
Si sentiste de nuevo esa insatisfacción,
hace ya 7 (¡mierda 7!) años que encontraste la solución.

Time is passing and you cannot write 
You look across your room, see those green hills?
 those were the ones you were wearing,
when you gave him that good-bye kiss
now look to the floor, 
you didn't think those red bulls were here for so long
It was like that, lying on your naked mattress,
for who cares? is not like you need the red sheets 
Air France, Toronto-Paris, Confirm your flight
green hills, empty red bulls, no red sheets. 
Then you looked at that wall of yours,
pictures of your past, most of my real friends are not even there,
you look to the other one, maybe it was your obsession with art.
What the fuck Mariele just decide!
it doesn't matter if in January you said 'never again'
just take a decision and that's your closure.

Alo, c'est quoi la Malinche?
And you smile, you just smile full of happiness
La Maliché... C'est pas facile a comprendre
Alors tu veux prendre un verre et comme ca tu m'explique? 
Your Air France session has expired please log-in again
I'm sorry I have to finish writing my essay
yeah Mariele exactly the one you have not even started
  
Suspiras... como si más aire te fuera a ayudar,
an other hour has passed
quisieras ser el angel azul de la pintura de Chagall
'I'm going to start making decisions that you might not like'
he smiled, 'I think you've been doing that for quite a while'

¿Qué decidiste?, podemos irnos a Grecia por dos semanas
Alors tu pars en Argentine?
We should go to Dominican for a week
Tu sabes que quieres, quieres sentarte a ver caricaturas
todos los tomos de Charlie Hebdo,
leer a Marquez, leer Fuentes uno que otro cuento de Cortazar
quieres estar haciendo nada para pensar en todo
1am el espejo... I don't want to end like that
el boleto más barato, ahí vas...

Monday, April 13, 2009

Prochain Arrêt... Lycée Daudet

Believe it or not almost five years have passed
I never thought I would be so fucking fast
August 29, we were so young 
2004 I guess we were also strong.
I was not afraid back then, 
at least we did not have the "responsibilities" we have today,
you said let's go to France, I just said When?
I did not even care if I didn't speak French.
Bienvenue, moi Je suis Emmanuelle
Rumy ¿qué dice?
Vous mangez tout?
No, Eva n'aime pas les legumes!!
I think it's almost 10am
That means il faut prendre un café
ask if anyone is going chez le boulanger
Rumy me traes un palmier.
Our afternoons drinking café viennois
sitting in La place de la Comedie
looking at the people who walked by
fumándonos un "gar" tras otro "gar"
Thursday is almost here, 
¿ya sabemos a dónde vamos a ir?
Ryan air says...
Ce weekend... on'y va en Italie
I see the elevator chez Espace Langue
going up by the time we just opened the door
I still hear your voice saying we should wait, 
while I give you that "we-are-taking-the-stairs" face.
Te debo dos euros Rumy, tu pagaste en Monoprix
Shit! I just lost my debit!
No Rumy tu pagaste antes el croque monsieur,
Merde! That was my stupid train!
We hear the Andean music while we are waiting for the tram
Polygone plays the music from La Star Academie every time
We are going to the Australian tonight
On peut prendre L'Amigo à Port Marianne
I can still feel the excitement of braking the rules,
I can still hear Danielle saying fermez la goule!
I will never forget our cigarettes at the window's edge
ni las bolsas de plastico para protejer tus pies.
Now that we think we are all grown up
I look back and maybe it was that little town were we belonged
I think today I am as happy as I was back then,
I'm sure you know what type of happiness I'm trying to explain
You often said that it was a trip to the beach what changed me
I can tell you it was that fall without hesitating
That is why you have an intrinsic place in my heart
one that was perfectly constructed by my mind
You are the only one who has not questioned
the random decisions I have made
because you always believed I was doing it for a better end
your advice and support got me here
una servilleta de la desti me hace seguir.
We need to go back,
be roommates again,
pretend the years have not passed
share une tarte aux pommes
and each one have un café au lait
comme ca j'oublierais toutes mes défaites.
We will go back, we are still young
on est aussi plus forte
soon we will be sitting back in Antigone